I fractured my right baby finger in a silly little accident five weeks ago in Zimbabwe. I was told it was a small fracture and had the finger put in a splint. I was told in a months’ time to go to my Dr here in Joburg, take more x rays and have occupational therapy and hey presto I would be fine.
Sadly that’s not what has happened! My latest X rays show that my finger has not healed and that the bones are sitting crooked and cartilage has been damaged. I went to see an orthopaedic surgeon this morning who in his words said: “it’s a nasty fracture.” I am likely to need a joint replacement.
I have been praying and studying God’s word, and the passage that God has spoken through to me is John 11: 39-40.
“Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the Glory of God?”
This was in reference to Lazarus being already dead for four days.
Nina Smit in her devotional book: “In Touch With God”
Martha had faith “if you had been here, my brother would not have died”(John11:21)
Martha had faith for what could have been, “I know Him (Lazarus) will rise again”(John11:24)
What Martha needed was faith for what was happening now. Martha did not even consider the possibility that Jesus could raise her brother from the dead.”
I find myself with the question “What am I not considering the possibility of? Where do I struggle the most to believe that God is who He says He is?”
I believe that God is my provider, protector, comforter, the one who guides me, my deliverer, and the one who is in control of the universe. There are just so many things I believe about Him so why do I struggle so to believe that He is the one who heals?
I realise that God is revealing this to me today. Time and time I have prayed for healing and nothing has happened in the physical world. People say God heals spiritually and yes I wholeheartedly agree. Yet I know from the bible and stories I have heard, that God heals in the physical world too.
My mum who has Parkinson’s disease has not been healed, my husband with all his back issues has not been healed, and people who I have prayed for healing from cancer have not been healed.
So what do I do with all these seemingly unanswered prayers?
I have asked the Lord to reveal Himself to me as a healer, to take away all doubts and to help me believe and I am eager to see His hand upon my life as I see Him reveal Himself in new ways. I am choosing to believe that He is a healer because His word tells me that, and I will choose not to rely on my feelings or circumstances.
Numbers 23:19.
“God is not a man, that He should lie nor a son of man that He should change His mind. Does He speak and then not act? Does He promise and not fulfil?”
I am challenging you to look at yourself today. Where do you struggle to believe that God is who He says He is? What are you going to do about it? Won’t you pray and ask Him to reveal Himself in that area where you too are struggling?
Then let’s watch as He does His awesome work in our lives!!
Olga Fredericks
